Thursday, February 25, 2010
We all know the 5- letter word "sorry" don't we? We've been taught to use that word even before we were born... well not really. Sometimes when you do something wrong, and you apologise for doing it, you don't actually mean it. Or you may really mean it, but don't sound a single bit convincing. People say "I'm sorry" in a way that makes you feel that they didn't mean it because it's hard to really mean it. It's one of the hardest words to say in the world.
So when someone says "I'm sorry." to you, you say "It's okay." Sometimes you say that even if you don't mean it at all. Deep inside, you're still hurt and have a difficult time forgiving them. Sometimes you don't even think of forgiving them. Just "Sorry" and "It's okay" is all you THINK you need to get over it. But you haven't quite gone through the whole process of accepting the apology and forgiving.
I know that owe people some apologies. Or rather I owe just one person an apology. And I don't know about you, but for me, I have a hard time saying the words "I'm sorry". So... I'm sorry for all that I have done. Hurting your feelings, spilling your secrets etc.
Today, I really really wanted to apologise to you, but those words just could not come out of my mouth. And I have to admit that I'm not strong enough to go through the apologising process verbally. So I'm doing it this way. You have apologised to me, but it really was not your fault. It's only natural to react the way you did, so I'm fine with everything. You didn't even need to apologise. But since you did, I think I accepted it. If it seemed like I didn't, now I'm saying that I accept it. I look up to you for having the courage to say "sorry". Thank you.
:)
VANDALISED!
Thursday, February 25, 2010
